Monday, September 24, 2007

This love is slowly killing me

I'm house sitting. No surprise really since there is, like always, heavy shit to think about. Lisa has wonderful ways of making me see the side I can't see because I'm too consumed by my own head. Someone to help rationalize is nice. Very nice.

I walked 'home' in the rain just now. It's one of the saddest things to do. I'd be lying if I said I didn't love it. I will, however, admit listening to Blackfield was a major bad idea! It makes me think of things I thought I figured out. Feelings I thought I dealt with come right on back and make me realize I only covered them up to delude the significance. I don't think I'll ever fully figure this shit out. Ever. I should not listen to Once(or epidemic... or my gift of silence... or anything really) for at least 3 days. But I can safely say I will listen to it 5 times a day. Fuck you Blackfield. Fuck you-fuck you-fuck you-I love you!

It's late. I'm going to bed.

1 comment:

lionamelie said...

walking in the rain is sad and amazing at the same time. sometimes I do it. Its great.